Chapter Twenty-Four: Candy Rain:

-Jiao-

I lay awake in our bed. (Ha, our bed!) What has become of me? I have already been over this before, but I don’t have an answers. This idiot lying next to me doesn’t make it any better. In fact, he is the cause of my problems.

I used to want to chase him away. Now, I am not so sure anymore. I can’t help but less at the former self of myself. However, I don’t really miss her. As of right now, there is no identity for me. How would the new me form?

It’s going to be morning soon. I’m still not ready to surrender my pride. There is still a little bit left in me still fighting. She amuses me so much. I don’t really want to let her go either. She’s the only evidence that I have that I am still me.

However, I find myself frowning. Where does that leave me now? The painfully obvious is that I have to let this idiot stay with me. I might as well since he refuses to leave anyway. I sighed, shaking my head. It almost too easy and predictable. I looked down at the former priest lying on my body. It’s annoying that he looks so cute.

Ever since I took his man cherry, he’s turned into a lovesick little puppy. It almost creeps me out. Still, I can’t help but feel flattered if I think about it. I don’t know, it keeps going back and forth. One minutes, I feel like I need a bath and the next I find myself charmed by him. My mind just can’t seem to pick one extreme and stay with it. He cuddled up to my body in his sleep. I patted him on the head.

Oh, you. What the hell did you do to me? Huh? I don’t ask that to his face. What would be the point? All of my words to turn him away have fallen on deaf ears in the past. Plus, I’m running out of ways to turn him away. My eyes glanced over at my clock on the nightstand. I can’t believe that it will be morning in a couple more hours.

I looked back over at that foolish man sleeping on my body. What am I going to do tomorrow morning? I still don’t have that answer fully plotted out just yet. Probably, this is what’s going to happen: we’re going to watch over the happy family and act all lovey-dovey. However, there is a new element in this routine. Roka and I have to protect and keep them together. That’s right. I have gone from just creating lust all of the time to protecting love. It’s so ironic that I almost want to laugh. I froze when I felt the idiot stirring awake next to me. My eyes darted over and met with his.

“Good morning,” he whispered.

“Morning,” I replied.

He tilted his head at me with such innocent eyes. “What’s on your mind?”

I smiled as I shook my head. “Not much, baby.”

He smiled back at me. “I love you.”

“Yeah.” I don’t know if I’m ready to accept reality or not, but I do know this: I think I like living with this idiot and I might admit that I love him one day. Right now, I’m just going to ride with it. Yep, I am a shell of my former glory. This is going to take a while. Oh boy…