Hello. My name is Alexis. But, you can call Lexie. How are you? But enough about you, what about me? *Giggles* Anyway, I live with my boyfriend, Lucas. We both moved to Japan two years ago. It's been like home ever since. I love Lucas. We have been together for six years now. He is so good to me. He protects me so much. Lucas is my rock. He keeps me from breaking down. I really don't know what I would do without him. There is another guy that I am pretty close to. His name is Shuichi Shindou. He too is really good to me. He keeps me from falling to pieces when Lucas is not around. I can tell him anything and know that it'll be safe with me. He usually acts hyperactive and child-like, but he's around me, he's more stable than I am. I guess it's because I am the damaged one between us and he is the rock. But don't worry, I'm not it love with Shuichi. He loves Yuki and I love Lucas. Shuichi and I are just friends.
I seem to be pretty needy, don't I? I can explain that one. Years ago, I was in a clinic in America for some minor mental issues. To make a long story short, there was some abuse and murder there. I don't really want to talk about it at all. Too many painful memories. After the clinic shut down, I went to live with some relatives in North Carolina. That's where I met Lucas and we fell in love. But because of the clinic, my problems have gotten worse. But lucky for me, I have my friends and my boyfriend to help me. Well, most of the time... (Just read their profiles to understand. *Sweat drop*)
My life is almost normal to be honest with you. I work at Gold Hummingbird Shelter for Battered Women. I wanted to work there because I just love helping people. I feel so good inside when I do so. I also have a very low drug and alcohol tolerance. I can't have any drugs or liquor. I get sick just breathing in cigarette smoke. My friends are really careful about what they order for me. I guess I'm like the child in the group. They pretty much keep other people outside of our group from talking to me. Good thing, because I don't really know how to talk to new people that well. I just let them talk to me mostly. That's how I met Lucas, Shuichi, and them. But I do manage when I get to know them.
I know that there is something really wrong with me. I don't really know what, but I'm worried I might hurt someone because of it. Strange things keep happening to me. I wake up in strange places. My closet is filled clothes that I had never seen before in my life. I find myself wearing those clothes I've never before in my life. I end up filling sick in the morning before of drug or alcohol use that I'm not aware of. Many people always confuse me for someone else. Strange men are always hitting on me. I always lose track of time. I miss days of work many times. The list just goes on and on. Shuichi claims that I sing very good, but I don't believe him. I freeze up and get nervous when I'm on stage. I have really bad stage fright. My friends seem to know about my strange behavior, but they don't want to tell me anything. Lucas tries to keep them quiet and me in the dark about it. Something is going on with me, but they won't tell me and I don't know what it is. The only thing I hope is that I am not too damaged or broken to be "fixed" again.
Bands: Gorillaz, Coldplay, the Cure, Beatles, and the Smiths
Ambition: To be "fixed" and normal again. That's all I want.