Book I: Bayu

Cantro Two: Bayu:

She was my first wife.

We have a history that we can’t escape from. She is the mother of my first two children. I still love her to this day. As the cliched line goes, I can’t quit her.

I came to her first. I was still pure at the time. It’s hard to say what exactly drew me to her. Angels could be compared to babies back then. Everything was just starting back then. Angels didn’t have mind or personalities of their own. We didn’t even have faces. Apparently, father found this boring. (He tends to do that sometimes.)

First came faces. We didn’t know what to do with them at first. He didn’t explain why he did. We had no choice but to accept it. (We tended to do that in the past.) Now that I think about it, father was quite lonely for a number of years. Centuries even. He does things when he gets bored and lonely. But, I digress.

Now, he had many faces to talk to. Father probably looked like a crazy person talking to a bunch of floating faces. We couldn’t talk or move because we didn’t have voices or bodies. We did hear him humbling as he got to work creating everyone. Father was so proud of his work.

But then, he got bored again. When father gets bored, he gets creative. We soon had bodies, voices, and minds. Father taught us how to think and speak. I learned faster than my brothers and sisters. For that, he took a liking to me. I didn’t know any better. I didn’t mind him talking. He had plans for me. It didn’t cross my mind at the time.

I began to develop my mind further. Within what you would call a month, I could talk, read, write, and dream. When more angels did the same, it became lively in Heaven. Father enjoyed every minute of it.

Around this time, humans came into existence.

By then, we angels started to build bonds with each other. We didn’t have name for it, but we felt so close to each other. I looked around me and everyone started getting closer to each other. I didn’t have anyone. My father seemed like it that way for me. I didn’t complain. I couldn’t explain it at the time. Maybe it was because I was seeking his love and appreciation. But soon, I too became lonely.

That’s when I saw her.